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Under the Table and Dreaming

5.29.2007

I have the strangest dreams.

On Monday we went to the zoo with jj's family. The night before, Sunday, I dreamed about alligators, but the dream had a Jaws theme. My alarm finally went off, but every time I hit snooze the dream continued. That never happens for me, the dream usually end when the alarm goes off and then a new one begins.

A few days before that I dreamed about one of jj's coworkers. I know his coworkers because I go to trade shows and we hang out and go to dinner with some of them occasionally. I chat online with a few of them. That afternoon I dreamed about the same coworker. It must have been a Sunday, those are the only days I get naps.

A few days before that I dreamed about this bug. I found this guy through a group on flickr. In my dream the bug was under my skin in my left index finger. I could see it moving up and down and all around in my finger. I had a tourniquet hold on my finger I did not want the bug to get anywhere else. Eventually I worked it to the tip and popped it out. By popped I mean it flew across the room.

There is also the dream I had about Gentry before I was even considering getting pregnant. I dreamed of a little blond boy. He held my hand and was helping me to be good. He wanted me to be good so much.

And the night before I had the ultra sound on Gentry, I dreamed about a little girl. She was probably five and looked just like me when I was five. She had long brown hair in a pony tail and a red polka dot shirt. We were at my Aunt Adele's house and she wanted me to hold her hand and go somewhere with her.

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Swaps and little boys

5.22.2007

I recently made a friend on Flickr. We did a swap. I sent her all sorts of Oriental treats from a market downtown and some fancy doggy treats for her dog. She sent me all this. I feel a little ashamed of the meager amount that I sent her. I will have to send some more.



Also, this afternoon I put the boy down for his nap an hour early because he was being so grumpy. He was fine for a while and then he started to yell for me. I did not go in for half and hour and when I finally did, he was naked. Not a stitch of clothing was even slightly attached to him. Not even a diaper. I could not help but laughing at him. Encouragement. Somehow I know this will not be the last time. I hope he doesn't start peeing on everything. That might be the next logical step though.

Get naked.

Throw all clothing out of bed.

Throw all toys, blankets and pillows out of bed.

Now what?

Hmmm.

Now what?

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Finished Patio

5.21.2007



Just add furniture.

We worked on this all day Saturday. I think it looks great.

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I love...

5.18.2007

:: my little boy taking an early nap ::

:: singing songs together ::

:: talking about animals, family, friends and movies with the small guy ::

:: watering our garden ::

:: pulling weeds :: showing new eyes old things ::

:: finding he can do things himself :: go downstairs :: get a drink of water :: change the dvd :: take off clothes ::

:: making art :: considering new ventures ::

:: making decisions together ::

:: begging for kisses ::

:: reminders ::

:: cute cousins ::

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That's embarrassing

5.16.2007

Oh my goodness! Listen to this.

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Look what came in the mail

5.14.2007

I bought the following illustrations from millymollymandy, an etsy shop. They came so quickly from London and I love them.

I am so excited to hang these illustrations. A poetic series of a girl and tree in the four seasons.

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Two Weddings and a Funeral

5.12.2007

Yesterday there was a college graduation and a wedding to attend. I am happy for the many great accomplishments.

I am also happy to have had a chocolate apple from Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory.

We arrived home at about 11 last night and the boy was OUT! Practically comatose. We tried earlier in the day to get him a nap at Aubrey and Travis' house. We called them after about an hour of having been there. They went down to check on him and he was busy licking his bed.

Take a nap? Lick my bed?
Take a nap? Lick my bed?

I think the choice is obvious.

When we got him home, we wiped him down, changed his diaper, changed his clothes and put him in bed all while he was asleep.

It was a long, good day.

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I love...

5.11.2007

:: protection :: it comes in many forms ::

:: hugs + kisses ::
:: my silly boy ::

:: the smell of rain ::

:: little boys who listen ::

:: making new friends ::

:: being wanted :: being needed ::

:: life is beautiful :: vega4 ::

:: these pom-poms :: elephants + goats :: these boxed cards :: good photography :: real portraits :: angel faces :: tender moments ::

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Crochet Scarf

5.09.2007


:: scarf I have been crocheting on and off and on for years :: done :: considering the next project :: booties :: skirt :: little wrap ::

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It was hers

5.06.2007

One of my favorite necklaces. It was originally Grandma Katherine's.

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In his hand

5.04.2007

In high school I sang a song with the line:
May God hold you in his hand

I was thinking about this today.

If he is hold us in his hand...

and he shakes it up...

is it like shaking up a jar of spiders?

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I love...

:: the way my thoughts have changed now that I am searching everyday for things I love ::

:: being out of credit card debt :: tax returns ::

:: yummy + beautiful dinners ::

:: silly boys ::



:: big open sky ::

:: this free birthday card :: this free envelope :: this stencil idea :: this retro star :: this little pouch :: this pin cushion :: this wallpaper :: this wooden book, isn't that your mom Sarah ::

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Weeding Process

5.03.2007

We set out this morning to take care of the weeds that are taking over the alley between our house and the neighbors. They aren't knee high yet and it rained last night so I thought I would be able to tackle this in an hour or two. Turns out that is not the case. My weed puller has mysteriously disappeared.

And the weed pulling gets a little bit challenging when you have to yell at a little boy every two minutes.

Stop throwing rocks at the neighbors house. Stop throwing rocks down the window well. Stop throwing rocks. Stop sucking on rocks. Stop eating dirt. After a brief dry heaving episode, we continued. Stop sucking or rocks. Stop biting wood chips. Don't throw dirt at me.

Luckily for all it got really cold again and started to rain.

I wouldn't trade this. I love a little distraction and entertainment while I work.

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Motherhood

5.02.2007

When do they turn from babies to little kids? Is it over night or a progression?

When did he learn to love me in return? How does he know that I can make his owies better? When he is sick or hurt, why is that my greatest hurt?

I think that I am not alone in the fierce protection I feel for him. I think there are those who feel the same about me. We are always someones baby. All grown up and doing my own thing, sometimes you need a hug from your mom. Sometimes, no matter how different you are or become, it all melts away and you feel the unconditionalness of that connection.

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